Resurrected

This is kind of a late post but Happy Easter everyone! :) 

So I was finally baptized as a Born-again Christian on Easter Sunday and I cannot tell you all how great I feel! I woke up super early (6:30am!) to be in time for the ceremony. When we arrived at the church it was raining and the rain got stronger and I was afraid the rain wasn't going to stop. But by God's grace, the rain stopped JUST as we were going to start! And what was more, the sun SHONE BRIGHTLY after I received my first communion. Indeed, God is truly amazing! Everything worked out according to His plan and I am just so grateful that even my family and friends were there to support me. It really meant a lot to me that even the Young Pro Fellowship members came to watch my baptism. I was so touched :)

before the ceremony

with Rev. Yu

Thank you everyone!

you keep me on my toes

After 2 whole days of doing nothing, I was looking forward to dressing up! :) And I got kinda bored with my hair lately so I decided to curl it. I forgot how much I liked having curly hair!

It's crazy how a person can keep you on your toes, like literally on your toes - giving you that extra pump of adrenaline and making you feel something that may or may not be there. I like it when that happens, makes me feel confident. ;)  

Top-Zara; Skirt-H&M; Shoes-H&M

putting the holy in holy week

For the past 2 days, i have been at home bumming around, playing computer games, watching tv series and reading magazines. I owned my time. I didn't have anything to do, no place to be, and certainly no work to do. But I was doing things for myself, I made this week into "me" time instead of His time.

Today I met up with the Pastor who was going to baptize me tomorrow. After years of no's, it was finally time for a yes. I find it really significant that I will be baptized on Easter Sunday, exactly the day when Jesus was resurrected from the dead. After all, "...to live is Christ and to die is gain." 


I think that everything worked out perfectly after all. In God's perfect timing He made all this possible! I am really excited and nervous at the same time. Excited that finally, I will be able to let the whole world know that I am a Christian, born-again and saved by grace through faith. Nervous because I do not know what to expect, nervous because I will again become a new person - someone who should mimic Christ Jesus.

I had a really meaningful afternoon and I believe that I will take all that I learned and I will carry it around with me everyday. I promise to be more devoted to Christ and to be more serious. I promise to cut off ties with my old ways and look forward to the future and what lies ahead, how short the time may be.

wear red, wear hope

So this is my version for Chictopia's "Wear Red Wear Hope" campaign for Japan.

I made friends with a few Japanese students while I was studying in China so when I heard the news about the tsunami and earthquakes, I immediately messaged them to see how they were doing. Luckily they were not affected as much, but I cannot say the same for the rest :( 

Top-Zara; skirt-Zara; Belt-H&M; Clutch-Nine West

beauty in fashion

So Ayala Malls has this contest where you submit of your personal style and write a little description about it and I decided to give it a shot! This is my entry.

Top-Zara; Skirt-Topshop; Shoes-Zara

I really hope you guys support me and like my photo! Just go to the Ayala Malls Facebook page and like their page: AyalaMalls360 then go to the application Beauty in Fashion and like my photo! This would really mean so much to me! Thanks guys ;)

we on the road

Road trip with the fam to Dumaguete, a city in Visayas located in Negros Oriental (?) which is about 3-4 hours away from Cebu by car and ferry :) 

It was a tiring day but it was also fun in a way. But most of the time was spent inside the car. It was a loooong drive I tell you. I felt claustrophobic by the time night came around. 

Top-H&M; Shorts-H&M; Shoes-Suelas; Bag-Topshop

Watch-HK; Rings-H&M; Bracelets-H&M; Bangle-random

Necklace-H&M

It was nice to sit by the seaside and smell the salty water for a while :)

On Vacation

Hey guys! I'm back from our little trip to Hong Kong. I feel like 5 days is not enough, there were still so many places I wanted to go to! :( oh well, maybe next time I could visit them all :)

HK here we come! :)

outside the new mall, The One. I love the chocolate bar designs! 

a little home shopping at IKEA

at Time's Square

Pucca Festival!

at ocean park 

We went to Ocean Park on the last day and did some last minute shopping. Too bad i couldn't go to all the H&M stores! 

that old, old feeling

My dad gave away our toy poodle last Sunday to his friend since we get too busy to play with her already :( But I hear that she's happy and doing well in her new home :)

I have found the perfect spot to take pictures, which is outside in our little "garden" area. I like it because at least it gives the desired natural light. :)

So excited for Hong Kong tomorrow! I will be on a short hiatus then but I promise you, when I get back, you will see some fabulous looks from me ;)

xoxo

Dress-vintage from Beijing

what about tomorrow?

Today was probably the most meaningful and emotional church service i've ever had. I have been a Christian for about 10 years now, since I was 12 years old. I remember it clearly, January 25, 2001 - I had accepted Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior. I was active after that, I guess all through out high school. I joined fellowship every week and I was really on fire for the Lord. When college rolled around, I got busier and friends drifted apart, and pretty soon I wasn't at fellowships anymore. But when college started, that was the time I went to church regularly. 

Now how many years later, I am ready to take that final leap - to be baptized as a Christian. (on easter sunday) I feel really excited about this new chapter in my life, but I can't help but notice that there are still so many things left unsaid. There are so many emotions that have been pent up inside of me, and today they suddenly came out. I did not intend for it to happen, but I cried. For the life of me, I do not know the reason why. I was embarrassed, mind you, because one minute I was talking to the Pastor and the next thing I knew I was bawling in front of him. So many questions unanswered, but I hope will be answered somehow. 

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Top-Zara; skirt-vintage; necklace-telebasura; shoes-from HK

Hong Kong on Thursday! I am so excited!! ♥♥♥

lash perm

yesterday i had my lashes permed with my bestfriend! i was a bit hesitant at first because i was scared of the procedure and the outcome. i had so many questions! was it harmful (no), did it have side-effects (no), did anyone complain about the procedure (no) and etc. finally i took the leap! haha. i think perming is better than having extensions since it doesn't really harm the lashes? although the effect is a lot different since the length of your lashes actually depends on how long your real lashes are.

anyhoo, the procedure took about an hour and a half, good thing i had someone to talk to while waiting. the process is actually pretty simple. first they put a sort of bandage on your eyelids then pull your lashes one by one until they get a good form, then they put some sort of medicine and cover it with plastic and let it dry for a couple of minutes. then they repeat it once more and then you're done! i wish i could show you a before and after photo but all i have is the before. haha :)

before. waiting :)

me, waiting for the medicine to dry up

jeanne trying to take a picture of herself

where has the friendship gone?

you think you know someone after being friends with them for so long, but in just a night everything can change. if friendship can be broken with just a single realization, then i guess the relationship was never that deep to begin with. 


some events have happened to me and my group of friends that has made me think about friendship and everything in between.

how can you suddenly choose not to be around your friends anymore, let alone be their FRIEND? is this something you suddenly decided? or has this thought been lingering already in your head for a long time?

i was so hurt by the words that were spoken, although in a way the thought wasn't expressed to me specifically, but still. it hurt. because i thought friendships lasted until FOREVER. how come this one was coming to an end so soon? i thought there were supposed to be happy endings, but how come this one seemed like a tragedy so many years in the making? who would have known that it would end this way? avoidance, rejecting seeing each other, and slowly fading away in the background? :(

i may be bad but i'm perfectly good at it ♥

Fun fun saturday night with my friends! It was the first time that I got to go home later than usual without being told to go home early! It was strange but such a great feeling!

We celebrated Auddy's birthday and had fun singing karaoke afterwards. This was just what I needed, and I will never get tired of singing karaoke! :D

the birthday boy

blazer-H&M; pants-Topshop; shoes-Suelas

know when to pick yourself up

today was a really unexpected turn of events.

i decided to take out my beloved zara pumps since i realized that it has been a year since i wore it last. with all the new shoe styles and heel sizes this season, i forgot the stilettos and sexy pumps that i had kept at the back of my closet.

i was confident enough that today would be a good day. after work we picked up the cake for my dad's friend who's celebrating his birthday, and i ordered some cupcakes for me too ;)

(L-R: Cookies and Cream, Double Chocolate, Cappuccino, Red Velvet, Vanilla, Chocolate)

we ate at a japanese buffet for dinner - i was so full! i seriously could not eat anymore. afterwards we proceeded to watch 3 4D shows since the parents were having their usual chit chat and us kids had nothing better to do.  while we were on the way to the theater area, bam. i fell and twisted my ankle =/ i was not expecting it at all, and it hurt really bad. i wasn't able to put ice on it since we still had to watch the 45 minute show (15 minutes each) and so we went home about an hour and a half after i hurt my ankle and i immediately put ice on it. the swelling has subsided to a minimum but it still hurts. hopefully by tomorrow it will be all better! i need it to be =/

i remembered all those people who fell down but got back up again and pulled it together. i find it comforting that this happens to everyone, and it can happen at any time without you expecting it. i learned a really great lesson today :)

Dress-Zara; Shoes-Zara 

what do you guys think of my nails? i did them myself so they are a bit sloppy. :)

everything will just fade away

I finally get to wear the pants I redeemed from chictopia last year! It arrived when I was already in Beijing so I couldn't bring it with me and I totally forgot about it when I got back until just a few weeks ago. The size was too big for me so I had it altered and made it into high-waisted pants instead. I really like how it came out :) I'm hoping to wear it more often!

Fall back guy

Yes. I admit it. You are my fall-back guy. I just realized that now. Whenever I feel lonely, I think of you. I think of texting you. I wish you would somehow text me. Even when I am at a happy point in my life, there are still moments when I think of you and wonder if you still care for me. If you still have feelings for me. If you still think about me.


I still think about you, you know. Even though it may not be that often, even if it's not because I like you too, still, I think about you. 


Sometimes I think about giving you another chance, of saying yes and trying to make happily ever after work with you. But then I hesitate, because I don't really know if I would like to spend forever looking into your eyes. I don't know if I would like to be the mother of your children, or that I would want you to be the father of mine. I don't know if it's really you that's destined for me.


Sure, being with you would be easy. You're a good guy, you would do anything for me, you would do your best to make me happy, and I know you would never hurt me. But could I do the same for you? Could I make you happy, half-heartedly? 


I am afraid to take the chance because I don't want to regret the decision, and I don't want to change what we already have. There's something between us that only you and I can understand. We may not be together or say aloud that we like each other, but when it's just us two, we're comfortable and relaxed. We know each other so well that we know if the other is lying, even if it's only through text. You're the only one I have this connection with, and I'm confused if this is a special friendship or something deeper than that. 

Paint it red

The weather here in Cebu has been craaaazy lately! For the past week it has been raining non-stop, dark and gloomy :( It's kinda dampening my mood too, although I do like the cold. I am kind of used to wearing jackets, jeans and the likes since I did live in Beijing when it was winter so I had to make use of what I had and I tried my best to still be fashionable given the weather circumstances.

Top-H&M; Jacket-TrunkShow; Wedges-H&M

Funny thing, while I was watching Glee last night I noticed Mercedes wearing the same top!

The only thing missing in this outfit are red red lips :) My latest addiction is lipstick! There's just something sexy with being able to paint your lips in a different shade. Lately I'm into reds and pinks, and I am looking for the perfect nude lipstick! Still no luck though.

settling

Don't settle. Because in the end, you'll realize that it wasn't worth it after all. 
If he's not the guy of your dreams, don't be with him just because he makes you all giddy and happy inside.
No matter how long you've waited for a guy to come into your life, it's not an excuse to just jump on the first guy who makes you feel special.
After all the fireworks and firsts have passed, think long and hard if those feelings are going to last. Because if they aren't, then it's better to say an early goodbye. 

You Would

If you could only see
How funny and charming I could be..
then, you would surely
fall in love with me.

If you could only see
How sweet and caring I could be..
then, you would surely
fall in love with me.

If you could only see
that behind this girl,
who looks like she has it all
she just needs someone like you?

If you could only see
that amidst the craziness and the loudness
there's a soft spoken soul
that's never been broken.

If you could only see
that aside from all the guys
there's a girl who's waiting
to give love a try?

If you could only see
that underneath that really huge heart
it's been broken over and over
waiting to be put together, whole again.

If only you could see
that behind the imperfections
she could be that perfect girl,
that she could be the one for you.

Why can't you see it?

-vky

sun, come out and play

i was expecting to have some one on one time with the sun this morning, but it didn't come out and play today :( well it was kind of expected because of the tsunami and earthquakes that hit Japan and some surrounding countries yesterday. thank goodness nothing happened to the Philippines. but I hope that no one's loved ones are stranded or trapped somewhere in Japan!

Maxi skirt-H&M; Jacket-Miley Cyrus; Necklace-Accessorize

I just love this skirt that I got from H&M about 3 months ago. Today was the first time I wore it. I've been putting off wearing this for a special occasion but I realized that everyday should be a special one. My mantra is "Always look your best, because you'll never know who you'll run into" ;) ♥

Take me for a ride

Lately I've been feeling a bit too touchy and emotional, i don't know if it's because of the pms or because i really feel that way. Anyhoo, normal saturday out with the family and while we were at the restaurant waiting for our food, Rihanna's "Only Girl In the World" played and I instantly felt a wave of nostalgia for my Beijing days! It's crazy, I know. I don't know if my other friends feel the same way I do but I can tell you that I am probably the craziest one - missing Beijing and everything I had there! :(

I guess part of the reason why I miss it this badly is because I really had a FUN life over there. A really REALLY fun life.. and I want it back! ;(

Top-H&M; Shoes-H&M; Bag-Min Chu market in Beijing

I love these shoes! They remind me of military combat boots, but edgier and waaay more stylish :) This was the first pair of heels I bought when I was in Beijing. I had been looking for the perfect pair of heels and nothing seemed to fit the category. Until they released these babies! They are really comfortable to walk in and the heel height is just right! What's more, the style and color is really unique!